Perseverance is a sermon that you’ll hear preached AT LEAST 76 times in your life. Whether you’re a christian, parent, student, employee, athlete, or just a human being, you will hear it eventually.
Being someone who constantly struggles with depression and anxiety, it’s easy to let life lay on my shoulders and hold me down. It keeps me from going out, getting dressed, eating, writing, and putting any effort into anything.
I create these situations that I just can’t handle when I am at my lowest. I create these thoughts and scenarios while I’m in such an unhealthy mental state, that when I try to pull myself out of that dark place, it EXHAUSTS me. Physically and mentally. Which normally causes me to ignore the original situation, go to sleep, overthink, stress, and give up on everything and everyone. I shut people out. I won’t text or call people back. I will be so ill, that I truly start getting sick to my stomach. I’ll have migraines. I won’t even want to speak to anyone and if you know me at all, that is so un-like me.
People always wonder how they can help, but it’s hard giving them answers when I know that I put myself so far deep in that position. It would be nearly impossible for someone who isn’t in my head to be able to help me out, so I just say I’m fine. It becomes a vicious cycle of me being outwardly the happiest person you’ve ever met but going home and sleeping, or laying in the dark with my thoughts of worthlessness.
But something I learned the hard way was this: If you create it in your own strength, you can carry it with your own strength.
Don’t give up. Give it up. When you fight and you feel like your strength is failing, give it up. Give it to God. Give him all of it. Every single bit of it. The glory, the fails, the struggle, the sweat, the tears, the anxiety, every single thing. You will never find the kind of rest that you need any where else. It is so refreshing. It is such a relieving feeling when you walk with all this weight on your shoulders and you are able to just throw it down and lay at God’s feet. There is comfort there. There is freedom there. There is love there.
It is way easier said than done. It is honestly probably one of the hardest things to do. It doesn’t just happen over night. It takes a lot of time and effort to find peace. But, knowing that it is possible is enough to settle and kind of panic. There is, and never will be, a quick fix for depression and anxiety.
If you were to try and lift a car alone, you would strain, struggle, and probably seriously injure yourself. You would sweat and scream. Honestly, you probably wouldn’t be able to do it. But, when someone is able to take some of that weight off of you, that car gets a little lighter. When God has a hand in your life, he helps you lift thing’s that are too heavy to handle on your own. But, you don’t give up. You give it up, and let God help. Together, you will get it done.
l make you stronger for your next battle. Regardless of how strong you get, you will never be in a position where his hand will not be of help. Significant help.
HE will help you. But you have to remember that it will be done on God’s time. Not yours. When he sees that you need a hand, he will give it. However, he will let you fight in your own strength first. In turn, this wilGive it up to God. Straining ourselves, by ourselves just isn’t worth it when you have someone so glorious on your side.
You will be so surprised how much better you will sleep at night when you constantly remind yourself who you have fighting on your team.
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.”
– Isaiah 40:29